This isn't my favorite word...

I never wanted to say goodbye only good night but what can I do now?

This really isn't my favorite word, I really wish everything would be the same again... I know this isn't the end of everything but I have learned to love these people wholeheartedly and should I say I already devoted my work to them especially to my Team Leader (Cheryl Diaz). When I first entered the team I keep on joking that I'll be the next top seller, and so it continued for quite some time but the it ended in a fast pace.

I was wrong. Was I? It is hard to accept but I had to face it... Goodbye, is just here in the air. Friends for keeps right? That's how we planned it to be, I found another family and it's here in SVI. I don't want to use this word with anybody... not with these people I have learned to love. Thank you for all the love and support, warmth in our friendship, and of course for making me feel I am important and wanting me to stay.

***********This goes to Che's Team, Livling,Frankie and my other friends here******************

am I about to cry?

think about this... now my team leader is pitching for me. I really dont want to leave just yet. she is trying to get a sale for me today. I am very overwhelemed!!! tell me... how am I suppose to leave this place?

what a gloomy day... :(

I really wanted to stay but I can't fight anymore... I already lost the battle... Maybe this wasn't good for me... Strength is already is drained and hope already faded... I already exerted every single bit of effort. Goodbye... I'm hoping they would remember me in every single way...

I dont know what will happen next...

I'm not feeeling well today so I can't work, not that I'm feverish but I can't speak. I must've worn out my vocal chords. I'm on my final written warning now and of course termination culd be next... I just wish I could sill stay in the company for a few more months coz I value those people I'm working with right now. I have nothing against the current situation I m in for the moment but because maybe I am not meant to be here for quite some time. I do appreciate all the the learnings I got here may it be good or bad. Even so I still wanted to stay a little longer

my first 16$ sale! and still fighting

I got my first $16 dollar sale and I'm very happy!!! I never offered something like that before. I need two more sales for this week hopefully I'll get it so I dont have to go to work during saturdays. I dont feel good today I feel sick right now I cough a lot and I just had a small fight with Frankie. Insecurities do occur to him. Its a good thing we have someone to cheer us up after all the pressure and everything.

no sale just yet but still fighting for my inspiration!!!

I recovered two sales last week but now I am still fighting for three more this week as said by our qouta. I witnessed how my team mates wanted me to stay, it almost shed my heart into pieces seeing that they're really working hard for my sake also. It's already wednesday and I'm fighting my way out to get a sale if not for me, but for those people who wanted me to stay and I have learned to love. I'll fight while I still can...

sleeps with butterflies

Airplanes
take you away again
Are you flying
above where we live
Then I look up
a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I’m not but
I like rivers that
rush in
so then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
for you the acrobat
I won’t push you
unless you have a net

You say the word
you know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don’t mind
I don’t hold on
to the tail of your kite
I’m not like the girls that you’ve known
But I believe I’m worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with Butterflies
with Butterflies
so go on and fly then
boy

Balloons
look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere

I’m not like the girls that you’ve known
But I believe I’m worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with Butterflies
with Butterflies
with Butterflies
so go on and fly boy*

This is a song by Tori Amos (my favorite artist) This song describes me in a way. I am a butterfly in a way, the one that you'll be dreaming of even the one that you wanted to be with for a long time but Im not the type of girl that you'll be keeping the hard way I 'll die instantly out of suffocation. I can be serious but I don't want to be tied up, just like a real butterfly they are only good to look at but you can't keep them. So as to speak I am still a butterfly and I dont want to be kept yet... Not just yet. I can LOve a person no matter what just like a butterfly who loves flowers, you can catch me but my wings will soon fade out.